All in the Family

This is officially my first blog attempt.  Where did that word come from anyway...blog..?  The first thing I want to say is I'm not doing this for people to feel sorry for me or my family.  I have long ago come to terms with the "weirdness" within my family.  I say weirdness because if I started out by using words like adenocarcenoma, glioblastoma, ductal carcinoma and myelodysplasia I'm pretty sure I'd lose you all right away.   I still get lost around them.

In simple terms I have a genetic disorder.  I had to of  gotten it from one of my parents, which one..who knows.  My ex-husband also has a genetic disorder.  Together,  instead of passing on quality traits like beautiful blue eyes or thick black curly hair, passed on a gene that causes cancer in our children.  Sick thought isn't it..I mean of all the things I wanted to pass on, this one rears its ugly head.
 
My mother always said, if you can't stand the heat, stay out of the fire.  I'm saying that now because I will at times, probably use some words that my not be suitable for children under 18.  The first one will be BULLSHIT.  We have grown to love that word in this family.  Every time someone is diagnosed with some new type of cancer the word automatically pops up, we've all earned the right to use this word and God will forgive us all.  :)

Today I was told I have myelodysplastic syndrome.  It's better known as pre-leukemia.  My dad passed away at 66 with it.  Is it from him that I inherited this, doc says he has no way of knowing.  Actually as I write this it's still sinking in.  My prognosis isn't the best nor the worst.  The doctors at the Cancer Center say 6-12 years, could be worse.  The way I look at it is I'm a long way from cashing  in the chips and with a roll model like my daughter and son I can't go wrong. They have no idea who they're dealing with. 

I do wish Jake wouldn't have been with me today when I went to the doctor's office.  I'm not sure I would of told him everything he heard today, maybe but I don't know.  We're very close as I have been with all my kids, guess there isn't much I should keep from any of them.

I've been referred to yet another doctor who specializes in blood disorders.  Honestly, I can't wait to sink my fangs into him.  And yes, I'm laughing...and always will be...smiling.